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The Return of Metro Sexuality

The world is joyous fucking place! Yes, people I am happy, VERY happy. Today is a day to celebrate, and not just because it's St. Patrick's Day. Today is a day to celebrate because my Metro man has returned! Yes, Mr. steamy, flirty eye contact guy is BACK! It appears that I was mistaken when I thought he'd lost interest. Turns out that dude I thought was him, actually wasn't. I am so fucking psyched right now I am glowing!

The encounter today was pretty much the same as the encounter last time. I was running extremely late for work and got to the station at like 9 am. Well as I was walking down the escalator I passed this man with a rolling briefcase who was cute and immediately gave me this familiar smile and bright look. I was in a hurry (as usual) and didn't really pay it much attention.

Well I get onto the platform and who do I see? The VP of my department! Yeah. How embarrassing is that? I said to him, "Well this makes me look bad doesn't it?" He laughed and said, "Not at all. It's Friday besides I'm feeling under the weather and a lot of people have." I was so relieved to hear that. So as we stand there talking I see the guy with the rolling briefcase walk past (from where I was standing I could see the guy over the VP's shoulder. Well low and behold I get a good look at the guy's face and it is the same guy from before who was flirting with me! He sees me and gets this shy expression on his face and then smiles a beaming smile.

To quote Dolly Levi, "Wow, wow, wow fellas..." this guy is CUTE! He is definitely over 35, about 5'10", has a shaved head (my ultimate weakness!), and a slender build. Not 100% my type but still up my alley! Unfortunately I had the VP as a cockblock, seeing as how I was talking to him, so there was no way for me to go over to this guy and chat him up.

When it came time to board the train, the VP and I were in front of the last set of doors on one car and this guy was in front of the first set of doors on the car next to it. I figure that will be the end of it, he'll board one car and I'll board the other. Well I get into the train car and sit in the last seat in the back, the VP decided to stand next to me and read his paper. After setting my bag down on the seat I look up and see the cute guy sitting 10 feet across the train from me next to the doors. I was stunned and overjoyed. I gave him the biggest brightest smile, which he returned, and we spent the remainder of the train ride half reading our papers and half flirting.

When it came time for me to get off at my stop, this guy rides to some unknown stop farther down the line from me, I straggled back a little allowing the VP to get ahead of me in the crowd. I took my time because this guy was sitting right next to the doors I had to exit out of. I hesitated as I went out to give him another very interested smile and I gave him a little wave. He seemed to perk up at that even more.

I have been beaming ever since, and it's been at least 30 minutes now. I am annoyed that I didn't get the chance to chat him up this time around like I planned but the situation is still very hopeful. Chances are I will see him again and maybe the third time will be the charm.

It's funny, I have just turned the corner with the situation with Big and now there is at least the possibility of other male interest in my life. What's even stranger is how embracing and happy I am about it. Don't get me wrong, I still love Big and if he came to me right now and asked me to be his he'd have me. But I think I have finally been able to let go and move on. My future is full of endless possibilities and I'm not locked into this tunnel vision of my life only involving Big romantically. I am open to all possibilities and know that no matter what happens I will make the best choices I can for myself.

I also wonder if this is a sign that my universal cockblock is starting to lift. True the VP's presence prevented me from actually striking up a conversation with this man, but I don't get the sense that it is a hopeless situation. In fact I get the feeling that our paths are meant to cross again, that things are moving in line for something bigger down the road. I don't know what that something is but I'm looking forward to finding out.

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