On The Eve of Something New
I'm finding it hard to believe that today is the last day of 2004. My mind is in a fog. It's difficult to wrap my mind around the concept that this is it. The shows over folks, there will be no more days, no more months, no more hours or minutes left of this year once midnight comes. It feels sad in a way really. You suddenly hit December 31st and start wondering if you did everything you intended to do over the course of the year. Was there anything left neglected, is there still enough time left to do anything else.
It's silly really. The end of the year is a numbers and head game. While tomorrow will be the first day of a new year life still goes on. There is no natural occurrence that marks the passing of one year into another. It is a human invention. The sun still rises and sets each day, the seasons continue their cycle.
I guess it's natural to want to mark the changing of one year to another. It gives humans as a whole a common goal to get to. Everyone has hopes, dreams, and intentions that they want to make reality within the course of 365 days.
I sometimes wonder what it's all about really. Right now I feel not so much nostalgic as I do numb and out of sorts. Nothing seems relevant to the time frame. Morning shifted into afternoon and now afternoon is giving way to night. I have done virtually nothing today. Read the paper, watched some TV, checked my e-mail. Nothing substantial. It feels like a bit of a let down really. Like a balloon that has slowly deflated.
Is there something I am supposed to be doing today before all the parties other than get ready? Who knows. This day is almost done and this year is almost gone. Perhaps I will find the answer to that question next December 31st.
