A Bad Habit
In the past few months I have started to smoke cigarettes occasionally. At first it was one for purely curiosity sake, and seeing as how I purchased my first pack today (Marlboro Ultra Lights) I have to admit that this is becoming more of a regular habit.
I feel like a hypocrite, as I have been a very hard anti-smoking lobbyist for a long time. I am also allergic to cigarette smoke so this is even worse. I have discovered that I can smoke them provided I don't actually inhale the smoke into my lungs. Still though, this is not good.
Up until now I have kept this very bad habit in the closet as it were but have decided to bring it into the open. Perhaps I can shame myself into stopping. 
John and D are both disappointed I have taken the habit up, though John has very little room to lecture me as he is a chain smoker himself.
*Sigh* It's almost the new year. GOOD things are supposed to be starting at this time of the year not bad things. I wonder if this is symptomatic of something in my subconscious? I have much to work on in the coming year...
